Build up…

It is usually worse with kids, because they seem to always “forget” to brush their teeth… at first it is nearly invisible (one or two days in), but then you can start to see some discoloration… in some cases you begin to see the change of shape in what appears to be teeth. It’s build up.

This blog is not about teeth, or hygiene… well, at least not literal hygiene, but it is about build up. 

Have you ever had those times in your life when little by little things just seem to have built up on your heart, your mind, and soul? 

I’m there right now. Awhile back, during one of the most difficult times in my life I realized that I made me heart a rock over the years, but I found that instead I needed to simply remain on The Rock. I’m not too sure how well I’ve been doing that.

Tonight on the way home I was pondering… do you think that in some circumstances it is ok to bottle things up… and then get rid of the bottles? It is always said those who “bottle things up” are usually the ones who make the biggest explosions, but is it possible to bottle and toss?

I’m very sincere in this question, because part me believes this may be impossible. Sometimes, there will be things in my life that I thought I was well over and taken care of, but then suddenly, I find the bottle on the shelf and it cuts me to the heart over again, like it had never gone away. So what am I doing wrong? Is there un-forgiveness?

So, if it is not possible to bottle it up and throw it away… how do I best get rid of this build up on my heart? Can I find the root? Maybe. Can I solve the problem, not likely. 

So what do I do? 

I feel like every thing that should be “normal” is beginning to become problematic because of this build up…

Like wax dripping from a candle onto an object below. It never seems like it will be the same. The wax consumes and molds to the shape, but changes the object completely.

I long for some renewal.

mmmmm… for an easy yoke… and a light burden…

Oh, Jesus, please come and renew a right Spirit within me. 

Please return unto me the joy of my salvation. 

Bring the heat.

Melt the wax.



About desireunleashed

Prone to wonder Lord I feel it, prone to leave the One I love. Here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it, seal it for thy throne above.
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