It makes me so angry.
I just want to stop loving him.
He seems to have already just written me off as “his last relationship”
But no matter what I do… I keep wanting him,
What does Jesus want me to do in this? He asked me to marry him, I said yes… and now its over. This isn’t the way God’s plan works. I hate this. Why can’t he just marry me?
Why am I being drug through this?
Every time my phone rings… I take a deep breath hoping to see his name come up on the screen…
Every time I check my email I anxiously wait as it loads awaiting to see his name.
How do I get this to stop?
Why can’t I just hate him? Why do I continually love him?
You’re better off.
Be done with him.
Go on to the next stages in life.
And I try.
But these desires are just ingrained inside of me and I can’t get them to stop.
What do I do?