10 Days

I know that everything won’t be solved but atleast I’ll know… in 10 days.

We have a great week.
He says he loves me
He holds my hand
He gives me “a ring” to wear

Yet

I feel utterly and completely hopeless

He speaks of places we could live
Says we should look at them

But then talks of trips he’s planning without me
Going to his family for Thanksgiving – which is good
But what about me!?
Going “home” to be with his family for Christmas too
Which again is good that he wants to be with them… But what about me?

Am I just being selfish?

Is it wrong for me to wonder if his trips will have to replace the money for a real ring or a deposit on a house?

I have been doing so well untilnow… Just trusting the Lord that he would workit all out… Butnow it just seems impossible.

But maybe that’ll all change in 10 days…

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About desireunleashed

Prone to wonder Lord I feel it, prone to leave the One I love. Here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it, seal it for thy throne above.
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