Hard day.

Today was hard.

I’m tired.
I had an evaluation today and was told that since this whole “situation” with my fiancee has begun she has just seen me brought down- “like your light is being snuffed out, if you were my daughter I would beg you to get out.” What do I do with this?

Even my job is being effected. Maybe this season should just be over and I move on…. it sounds good.

Morocco? Pakistan?
teaching like I had planned after college- in a different country- among people God has put on my heart?

Marion?
go back to the beginning- maybe even work at my universities campus?

Or would that be running away?

Yesterday (at my 2nd job as a Behavioral Therapist) I was offered a full time job. It’d probably pay better and be less intense.

I just don’t know what to do.
When will it all be over? When can I move forward? When will the Lord renew me? I was told today that mourning lasts for a night, but joy comes in the morning. When will the morning come?

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About desireunleashed

Prone to wonder Lord I feel it, prone to leave the One I love. Here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it, seal it for thy throne above.
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One Response to Hard day.

  1. wisejunction says:

    Never make any change without confidently knowing God is telling you to do it. You will know in your Spirit. You will have no question. Be patient. I myself have patiently been waiting for certain changes. I just keep praying and waiting. I will know when it is time. I need to hear His voice and then obey.

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