I hate this. There is nothing inside of me that wants to be falling into sin… I want to just be completely free of those sexual desires and thoughts and “needs” to be filled… BUT I just keep falling.
I know what the scriptures say about sin. I know it is wrong. But in the moment when I am alone and completely down and discouraged and there is no one who wants me in that moment I’ve overcome with a desire to turn to lust…
It’s so frustrating.
It is clear in Romans 7 and 8… Paul “did the things he didn’t want to do and didn’t do the things he wanted…” but THEN he said that the law of the Spirit of life overcame the law of sin and death and he could now “walk in the spirit” and not sin. WHY CAN’T I?
I want this freedom.
I know Christ and I believe He knows me.
I know the Holy Spirit and He has spoken to me of the things to come… so why do I feel so abandoned in this issue.
If Paul really said that is was better to marry then burn with passion then why is he not allowing MY fiancee to marry me?