I’m SO sick of it.
IT’s everywhere and destroying everything…
what is “it?”
but I’m not just complaining because I see everyone around me falling or being consumed by it… I’m sick and hurt by it because it has gotten me too, I’m tired of it, and it’s killing me.
So why write that on this blog?
Because in the Bible it says that in order for sin to be destroyed it must be brought into the light. So… that’s what I want to do. I am sick and tired and sin- especially sexual sin- being such a hush hush topic in the church that people fall because no one can even just be honest about their struggles.
I am going to be honest about my struggles.
and maybe… just maybe by me being honest in my struggles and in confessing what I have fallen into… there will be freedom…
freedom for me…
and maybe freedom for you…
I don’t know. But why not try?
Hopefully this blog will be a place where I can be honest and others can be honest and maybe there will even be redemption through the honesty… Jesus died for a reason… and I’m sick of being a Christian who is living a life that looks so good from the outside… a Christian that looks so “alive” when in reality I am STILL dead in my sin… and seems as if the sin is winning.
I was called to come out of the grave by Jesus, Himself, and yet I still stand here smelling rank… like a dead man. Jesus commanded the people to “take off the grave clothes” when He raised Lazarus from the dead and He’s called us to do that too… so let’s do it.
I am here.
I am a Christian girl who grew up in the church.
I struggle with lustful thoughts.
I struggle with a desire for intimacy.
I struggle with my identity in Christ.
I struggle with a desire to be accepted.
I am ready to change. I am ready to take off the grave clothes. I’m ready to be given a NEW life and a NEW heart in Christ. I don’t need a “revival” I need to be resurrected!
So let’s go…